The spheres and orbits of my relationships have become attenuated with far more grace since the Rainbow gathering, and eye am finding a very rare energy embedded within them that is a space unto itself, where few people exist, or ever find. Eye am walking quietly into a space without attachment to the overt desires of someone, and how to be with someone romantically or sexually and still remain free. Not from the polyamorous, or modernly contrived relationship dynamics stance, but truly being free in the ways that exude the most natural expression of being in the world with someone and yet not in bondage with them, free in the music and the evolving style of dance. It is a charged and potent place for healing, protective vulnerability, and deep exchange, where eye am in contact with the spirit of the person. In the rougher and less refined relationship that are sourced in lust, it involves keeping someone in lust in order to desire them as an object. When you move into the place where it is just all sacred, you find that place where it is all one and the dance is more free, it comes from the oneness, not the twoness. It is about giving up the fantasies and still have full gratification. By chasing, and lusting, eye seem to never get enough, but by holding the space where it can be anything, in that space, eye have it all. There is minimal attachment to desire and maximum allowance for manifestation. In that space, everything is extremely charged and even sexual, where eye am not snuffing out my love life, it is just broadening more to include everyone and everything, and eye sure have a long way to go, but it really is getting very far out. Eye go through all my models of attraction again and find it fascinating and blissful. It is all sexual, just not necessarily libido sexual, instead it is more of merging, oneness, connection, not attachment because that means separation first.
It is possible to live in this high space, where the karmic entanglements do not bring you down each time. It involves continual self work, self love, followed by selfless action, and selfless love outwards. Our women are our spirit weavers, wisdom keepers, and child bearers of a thriving future, they inspire us towards our heroism as men, to be protectors, providers, and presiders, because they are worthy of nothing less than the best of life, the good, the beautiful, and the true heart of everything beating. The roots of masculinity, are buried deep and merging with the roots of femininity, when it goes this far down their natures blend, and on the surface the two plants emerge looking like separate entities, but they both come from source. It is special to live in age where historically disempowered lineages of the feminine are now thriving in their new flames of power, and to be witness to that as a man is very auspicious. To feed off the essence of the wild feminine, and remain spacious enough to always come back to hold that containment of my sovereign relationship with self, is a powerful practice and a new paradigm of consciousness in natural selection of my embodied manhood. It is the full occupation of a more enriching archetype, and being in the now with all the emotions that come up with a fierce grace for their passing visit. To bathe in the rich essential nature of a woman who exudes such strong spirit is enough to last a lifetime.
These are sentiments to my soul right now, where eye feel free in my masculinity, and balanced in the polarities with my femininity. In that space, eye have all the female attraction and attention eye could want, without the express desire, or craving. Being in that moment of holding the feminine in my soul, the physical goddess on earth has come to me in many women, in their soft animal bodies, in their vulnerable and healing souls, in their powerful intellect and intuition, and eye have watched them dance before me, thriving, singing and feeling full in their lives, in the space we hold together. It is very far out and yet so close to the real, of what Love really means eye think. It is not exclusionary of a spiritually guided monogamous or tantric relationship, eye just feel it to be one way that men can exist in this world in a sacred way, to be there for women in this way, sexuality becomes therapeutic, innocent, and transformative instead of perpetuating trauma, shame, and negative patterns. Eye have stared into the iris of a sisters eye, and seen someone eye recognize immediately because they are part of me, and eye of them. There we feel totally free to just be, because there is already only one shared soul expressed in two related people, and anything that comes is free from bondage, it is sacred, and special not profane, or mundane.